Kody Brown on Sister Wives.Photo:TLC
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Divorce was never a part ofKody Brown’s plans.
“I didn’t know who she was when we got married. She was very different,” the patriarch, 55, told the cameras. “I think just there’s some baggage that Meri had that I didn’t know about initially. I felt like I could live with it. … I can’t live in a world where she is constantly angry at me.”
(L-R) Kody Brown and Meri Brown.Meri Brown/Instagram
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When it comes to plural marriage through the Brown family’s church, Kody said that “a man has no choice after he’s already married.”
“In plural marriage, if he wants to stay faithful and in the faith, he cannot request a divorce,” he explained. “It’s not allowed. So I was not able to get out of that relationship.”
However, Kody admitted, “At the same time, I didn’t necessarily want out of the relationship. I wanted to know if we could save and fix it.”
“There was a complete nuance about, well, we’re going to figure out our relationship like there were several times I was with her where I’m like, well, here’s to a new beginning. We’re going to figure this out,” he shared. “Every time I was with her, she wasn’t nice, she wasn’t fun, she wasn’t kind, she wasn’t interesting. I’m trying to be curious with her and I’m bored. And so, I guess to be fair, Meri feels abandoned.”
“But I didn’t kick me out. Christine, Janelle and Meri all chose to have me leave the home,” he added.
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“Now, I’m not playing the victim card, I’m just saying it’s just the way that it was,” Kody shared. “I wasn’t ever going to leave them,no matter how much I didn’t love them. But they made choices that separated us. And maybe I made choices that separated us, but they eventually moved on.”
“We chose the road we’ve been on. This is the life we chose and when we chose well, we were happy family and when we chose badly we weren’t,” he concluded. “But everybody’s on their journey and I hope in the end that everybody is happy.”
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source: people.com